My soul was unfulfilled, and my heart was exhausted
When I first recognized that life was not what I imagined it would be, I decided to take some action and speak to Leah. My schedule was constantly full, my social life was always busy, my work life was on an upward swing. In stark contrast, my soul was unfulfilled and my heart was exhausted. Those who surrounded me saw a successful, hard working, community minded woman. I saw a person living a lie. My original goal, at the beginning of this journey, was to find that ultimate ‘happiness’ that we all seek. Through many tears, Leah guided me towards the realization that the human experience means feeling much more than happiness and anger; that there is a rainbow of other emotions and experiences. Through the learning of boundaries and detachment, I have found connection. Through lessening my schedule, I have found enrichment. Through quieting my social life, I have found true friendship. Through releasing myself of the duty to help, I am able to serve. Freedom and fulfillment do not always look like happiness and joy; coping with difficulty, then allowing myself to feel happiness and joy does. My life is forever changed. I am a better wife, a better sister, a better daughter, a better friend, a better employee, and most importantly, the best me that I can give to myself.